vno - zenosyne

https://www.dictionaryofobscuresorrow...

Just mashed up some memories from 2015 - 2019.

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[Lyrics]
Even now you’re bawling out too,
You’re saying shit like “I can’t control…”
You arm yourself with your own white lies,
You bend my words ’til I sound wrong:

“I don’t know, I don’t care, I don’t give a fuck”
Some Aderall - moving on ’til I’m feeling numb,
Found clarity with kerosene on bridges I have never been,
Lost track of time with my day 1’s,
All my fake ones telling me that I can’t continue being like this
‘cause if I fell towards another bag of gold,
I’d be as broke as my heart’s worth.

You’re the feeling I feel too much,
Don’t wanna go but I have to stop it,
You said that I can’t go wrong,
Hold on now ‘cause we’re what we want.

23 rotations feels like zenosyne,
Shaped my arch from all of the falling,
2020 - future’s melted in our hands,
We’re searching for some higher high.

“…and I wish that I could give it back. That I would give it back in a second, but I can’t and that’s my life and I deal with it - so don’t put your shit on me when you’re the one that’s afraid…”

Well, tell me how you feel ‘cause I’ve been craving that,
Been struggling for real but I don’t say as much,
Keeping on the low ‘cause my feet are cold,
Wondering about all these years I spent feeling down.
’Til I saw you around - had to climb your mountain.
I thought you’d spare me the journey,
All the way over the I-90 turnpike,
I’m tired of it all - forced to take on a home flight.

I don’t want to feel like time slows down no more,
‘Cause it just hurts me every time I’m here.
You keep falling for the only thing I wanted,
I know I won’t see you for a while.

Learned to move on - I’m still finding the rhythm,
We’re skipping some beats just to hold on to the feeling of hope.

[What are you so scared of?]
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