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Lyrics:
Minutes pass and the time went on as I’m looking back on the wasted year, alone in my room with the torment of doom and a case of beer couldn’t face my fear, with these 4 walls that I called home while I’m painting the windows black, on the wrong medication thoughts started racing, chest bursting heart palpitations, gone numb my limbs started shaking, and it seemed that I can’t go escape it, ‘cause my doctors and therapists are telling me this sickness I created, with a year of the preparation and the cost of my desperation, I was lost and my friends mistaken, asking “how was my vacation”…like the time away from work tied away and hurt was recreation, suicidal thoughts and panic attacks all social separation, but I’m forced to pose and fake it, wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy, suddenly I had gone heavenly talkin’ ‘bout ‘god can you please just grant me serenity?’….like yeah I’m suddenly religious, but honestly who was I kidding?, father jewish mother christian who married a mormon faith non-existent, went to church to steal from collection plates taking money stuffing my pockets, went to shul when I’m forced to and shoved bobby pins in the electric sockets, I’m thinking the doctors’ tests are not correct, my opinion’s irrelevant, they say it’s a chemical imbalance, but there ain’t no scientific evidence, but it’s evident, that I never been the same, just got better at hiding the pain, my reflection I wouldn’t frame, my complexion I could erase, I couldn’t make the mold of this mask any better holding a flask, trying to cope with the past alone in the hope it could last, boulder on shoulders growing too fast, heart getting colder frozen grew black, still I find peace in the boom-bap why I do rap with a crew full of new jacks never lose that, uh.
I’m trying to live my dream in private jets
but I can’t get past all these side effects
I smile and nodded trying to hide it best
but I can’t get past all these side effects
but I’m hoping that I can be wrong that I can find a reason why I suffered this long
and I’m hoping that I can move on that I can find beauty in the words of the song
locked behind these xanny-bars, drowning inside this alcohol, dependent on these chemicals only thing that I found compatible, any problem I choose to tackle, I would do with a 2 tone capsule, being stuck in a lose lose battle going coo-coo I was scared of my shadow, paint over the pain no spackle, take chance on my brain no raffle, I stand in the rain as I soak till I’m carried afloat like a boat no paddle, getting tired of blaming genetics, but I know the machine is defective, so are we imperfectly perfect? or excusing ourselves for depression, all the time that I’m wishing to be someone else could have used to improve myself, all the personal flaws I was cursed by it all turn your back I could use your help, but I move through hell, with a few screws loose and a past I’d dwell, and in fact I failed, in regrets in career to attract my sales, relationships I’m destroying, swallowed pride to collect unemployment, escaped in the pay so imagine the day when a show was delayed and avoided…all because these side effects so many years to get my mind correct, so many tears feeling like it’s time I rest but these night terrors are inside my head…insomnia, check… vertigo, check…had the curtains closed so not a person knows I haven’t learned to cope yet, edible tablets are stacked during this chemical balancing act, I entered the center of gravity happily never go back
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