getting rejected from almost every college I applied to: my experience | what (not) to do, advice

fight or flight when seeing the common app site now dear lord

seriously though, this was the first video I had in mind when creating this channel. it's been a long long time in the works and now that it's finally done, I had second thoughts about posting initially. I'm not particularly fond of showing my vulnerabilities that easily, as I doubt anyone is, and sharing to where it's accessible to literally everyone on this platform is more than a bit scary.

but I have also wanted to get this experience off my chest for a long time. uni applications weighed down on me so much during the process, and in the months after finding out the results as well. I felt like a total disappointment - to my family, to all who have supported me and my academic career, and to myself most of all.

first, thinking on it, I definitely didn't put enough work and preparation into my application and into myself as I could have during that time. I am absolutely at fault here, but I choose not to blame myself too harshly for that. circumstances I faced then aligned to make high school tough in many ways, though sometimes that happens - that's life, and the only thing I can do is learn from it and move forwards.

which is why I'm making this video - I'm letting go of the negative feelings surrounding this event. this is a thing that happened, and it's been a year, and I'm learning from it and moving on!

and for you too; if you're in the same or similar situation, I feel ya.

really, I do.

you're thinking and going through a lot, - but let me just tell you - life will move on. there are so many other bright, good things to see and explore. college is just college, and there's so much more beyond that.

this was literally almost the worst case scenario for me a year ago, and it happened, and I'm still living life and exploring so much! I am thankful for this experience though, and for all that it's taught me.

I hope you can get something from this video too, and as always,

thanks for being here :)

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chapters!
00:00 intro
00:48 preface; be water, my friend
01:12 exposition
02:24 uni stats
02:43 what colleges I applied to
03:04 applying + my high school life
06:50 nut dealer
06:57 on applying to 'fit in'
08:41 things I could've done better
09:00 1. plan in advance.
09:20 2. research.
10:31 3. delulu ain't the solulu
12:05 4. take chances! (make mistakes. and get messy!)
12:16 ethos
12:38 intermission; montage w mildly sad piano
13:29 and we're back, 4. pt. 2
13:53 uni review!
14:55 things I did
15:29 stunt break
15:44 on friendships :)
17:09 flexing on u
17:19 of ski racing and this semester
19:40 one last reminder
20:10 for incoming college freshmen
20:58 bye!!
21:36 asmr bonus ;)