Скачать или смотреть Literally made myself cry

So the other night when I was supposed to be sleeping but I couldn't so I laid awake just thinking about stuff and my brain went to "what if Niall died" and and I literally just cried because if he did leave to heaven I honestly don't know what I would do. Like i've already lost enough people in my life and if and when it's Niall's time to leave I think I might lose it completely because he is the reason I have continued to move on with life, he is the reason I still exist and he is the reason I smile. Like ik how much Niall means to me and all but like I didn't realize how much I actually need him. And ik it's gonna be awhile before he goes and all but like when he does I won't be prepared and I don't think I will ever be prepared. If u read to the end of this ty cuz ik it was probably boring to read 💖