ICEY - SPIDERS Feat. QUEEN JOLENE (Prod. METLAST)

QUEEN JOLENE -
I sit down on a chair that’s designated for the sick
For a 10 minute appointment with a clock on a wall
That goes tick tick tick
It happens like clockwork
No sooner I have sat
The doctor asks how I’m doing
My mask slips
The tears start to flow
(With the spiders I’ll reside)
I’ve been trying to hold it together
Trying to look like I’m coping better
But for who’s sake I wonder ?
Inside I’m dying
(With the spiders I’ll reside)
I’m hurting
Digressing
Fantasising about red baths
And razor blades cutting
Disappearing

ICEY -
Hey!
With the spiders I’ll reside
Drill a hole inside my mind
Heyy!
Please don’t ask me why
You wouldn’t like it if I tried

To tell you what’s inside
Darkness fills my eyes
You don’t know how lonely I get in my mind
I’m trapped up inside
Spiders are the only thing alive!

Now I can’t see no way out (why?)
Why won’t you just tell me why
‘We can be together’
You know we can’t be together
You know I gotta go n leave ya
Alone!
I don’t wanna go on no more!

QUEEN JOLENE -
He asks if I’ve been taking my pills
And how am I sleeping
And then he asks about my drug and alcohol consumption
(No I don’t wanna go on no more)
I’m drinking alcohol (oh why?)
And smoking the herb
Maximum dose of Sertraline to cure my ills
(Why are my hands as cold as ice?)
But if anti-depressants are supposed to level out
A chemical balance in the brain
And if my illness relates to the
Trauma of an abusive childhood
What do I actually gain?

ICEY -
Why is my mind as cold as ice?
Why is my heart cold as ice?
Why am I frost cold as ice?
Why’s my future cold as ice?
Why can’t I just tell you why?

JOLENE -
Like a gypsy
A traveler
A nomad
I long to be free
I just want to run from the pain
That consumes me

ICEY -
Tell me why
Why?
Why?

QUEEN JOLENE -
I ask myself
Why can’t I be strong
Like everyone else?
There’s no explaining the dark thoughts
And feelings that have me wanting to
Leave this planet early
It’s like there are 2 of me
Who are struggling to be
And struggling to breathe
It’s so frustrating because I know
That I will never intentionally leave