This is me trying || Sad Multifandom

Ahh I had so much trouble choosing the thumbnail for some reason!
Honestly, this was me just letting some of my feelings out, I've done this like a week ago but I was busy with my school and didn't upload it, so I am now. This is all about feeling like you're not enough, not being perfect or sometimes being "perfect" for so long that the second you do a small mistake you're treated like you did something absolutely terrible. It's also about trying your best and how sometimes people don't appreciate it and there's also some stuff on anxiety. Like I said I was just letting my feelings out.
I added some stuff on addiction because I think it fits the theme of trying really hard and actually Taylor said that's what she initially had in mind when writing the song.

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Song: This is me trying by Taylor Swift
Fandom: Many, ask in the comments
Program: Vegas Pro 14
Coloring: JulaMisiak - thank you!

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Voiceovers:
He's trying to be strong but he needs painkillers to get throught it. And when he tries to tell people how pathetic he really is they just don't hear it. (Kevin Pearson, This is us)

Draco Malfoy heavy breathing

I'm not right! I'm not fucking perfect (Madelaine McKenzie, Big Little Lies) + her crying in the car

I'm not going to take a drink today (Amelia Shepherd, Private Practice/Grey's anatomy)

I, I'm not okay Kev. I I. (Randall Pearson, This is us)

And I hate what I see, how I'm acting, the way I sound (Nadine, The Edge of Seventeen)

Dad didn't die ashamed of you. The only reason I said it on our fight was because it was a cheapshot (Randall Pearson, This is us, when him and Kevin make up make up after the big fight)

I've told complete strangers things I wouldn't even say out loud to the people I love (Amanda Rollins from SVU)

-That is why I'm in therapy, because nothing I ever did was good enough (Buck 911)

I'm never gonna be good enough for you, am I? (Legally Blonde)

I can't give you what you want (Sutton Brady, The Bold Type)

Lyrics:
I've been having a hard time adjusting
I had the shiniest wheels, now they're rusting
I didn't know if you'd care if I came back
I have a lot of regrets about that
Pulled the car off the road to the lookout
Could've followed my fears all the way down
And maybe I don't quite know what to say
But I'm here in your doorway
I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying
I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying
They told me all of my cages were mental
So I got wasted like all my potential
And my words shoot to kill when I'm mad
I have a lot of regrets about that
I was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere
Fell behind all my classmates and I ended up here
Pourin' out my heart to a stranger
But I didn't pour the whiskey
I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying
I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying
At least I'm trying
And it's hard to be at a party
When I feel like an open wound
It's hard to be anywhere these days
When all I want is you
You're a flashback in a film reel
On the one screen in my town
And I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying (maybe I don't quite know what to say)
I just wanted you to know
That this is me trying
At least I'm trying












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