"So it's because of me...? "

"Why is my kindness repaid with such consequences?" [S1, Ep 9]
Cheng Xiaoshi angst edit || Karma by @ajr
LINKS:
https://archiveofourown.org/works/541...
and... I cannot directly post the link for my link click analysis for my own sanity (long story) but on tumblr at @anulithots , scroll down to the link click section, I have loootsss of fanfics, analysis, and ramblings saved there.
PLAYLISTS!
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1vP...
(If you know the meaning of Pasoori... it's the universe to shiguang okay? Definitely not an excuse to include pasoori... definitely not. )
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/39U...
(my music taste has changed a bit since making these playlists... but the thing is... it takes time to figure out the translations of japanese and chinese and other languagesssss akjfadskf. I need to know all the languages to make better character playlists)
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The Link Click hyperfixation is still going strong... I want to watch season one for the eighth time over...
Cheng Xiaoshi is such a tragic, well-done character, just perfection all around proceeds to sob
Also also, a part of me is playing around with an idea for a... longer fanfic where Lu Guang dives back twelve times to save Cheng Xiaoshi (inspired by rainbao on tumblr) and Cheng Xiaoshi gains more subconscious awareness of the previous timelines with each dive.
So what if, during one of the later timelines, he goes to save Emma first, and ends up becoming her friend? They would've been great friends please I need this in my life.