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“Counting On You” came to me in a dream, at the lowest point in my life after losing my son—when grief had weight, the floor felt safer than standing, and breathing felt forced.

In the dream, my son came to me, his voice crackling through the dark. Not to say goodbye. But to beg me to pick myself up and carry on.

This song is what it sounds like when a mother collapses to her knees and love refuses to let her stay there. It’s the sound of the bond between mother and son and that no matter the distance, nothing can break that sacred connection.

It’s the echo of a child who is gone, yet somehow louder than ever—wind in the windows, fire in the chest, and a voice that says “Mama, you got this”.

This song is a reminder that no matter how crushing the weight of grief becomes, you keep going. Not because it’s easy. Not because the pain lessens. But because letting loss erase who you are would never honor the love that created you.

To disappear under the weight of his absence would be to let death take more than it’s owed.
So I rise.
Shaking.
Breathing.
Choosing myself again and again—because my living is the truest way I know how to honor his memory.

Every lyric is a step forward taken while trembling. Every chorus is a breath pulled from grief’s grip. This is not a song about death. It’s a song about being commanded back to life by someone you loved more than yourself.

For anyone carrying loss like a shadow, for anyone still getting up because someone is watching—- this song is for you.

To My Son: I heard you baby, and I’m still here like I promised, and this is my vow that every step I take will be in your name. I promise to honor and cherish our love and eternal bond and to make you proud! I love you son!!!

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