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verse 1:
i been lost in my head, let it rot when i’m home
talk to walls like they listen, like i’m not alone
say i’m straight, but my pulse say something ain’t right
feel a pit in my gut every end of the night
i don’t reach out no more, i just sit with the ache
let the hours fall through me, let the days decay
every thought feel sharp, every breath feels loud
got a storm in my skull but i don’t make a sound

hook:
cause i know what i was and i know i'm becoming now
don’t want pain, don’t want chaos but it still circling round
one day i might just torch it and watch all the smoke roll out
rising up from the ashes bears an alluring sound

cause i know what i was and i know i'm becoming now
don’t want pain, don’t want chaos but it still circling round
one day i might just torch it and watch all the smoke roll out
rising up from the ashes bears an alluring sound

verse 2:
i been zoned out in rooms even when i’m around
say i’m good, but my voice barely makes a sound
every hope i had feels delayed and delayed
like it missed its cue, like it showed up too late
i don’t dream much now, i just drift when i sleep
got my fears on repeat, got my chest feeling weak
i been scared of the dark but i’m scared of the light
‘cause it shows me the things i been dodging my whole life
nights get long, i stay up just to feel some time
living someone else’s hurt just to feel like mine
life on rewind, every choice feel the same
stuck watching moments i can’t save or can change
if i torch every bridge, every word i believed
maybe nothing can hurt me if there's nothing to keep
losing people slow, like they fade when i blink
out of touch, out of sight, just some names that i miss

pre-hook:
i don’t know who i’m becoming, i just know i’m not whole
i just know there’s a fire where there used to be hope
when the smoke fills my lungs and the silence gets loud
that’s the sound of me breaking and becoming now

hook:
cause i know what i was and i know i'm becoming now
don’t want pain, don’t want chaos but it still circling round
one day i might just torch it and watch all the smoke roll out
rising up from the ashes, blood in the back of my mouth

cause i know what i was and i know i'm becoming now
don’t want pain, don’t want chaos but it still circling round
one day i might just torch it and watch all the smoke roll out
rising up from the ashes, blood in the back of my mouth