I Could Change The World (If I Could Just Get Out of Bed)

I wrote this song just as I was starting to come out of a fairly ugly bout of depression. I debated tacking a hopeful, positive end to the song, but that felt a little dishonest and not necessarily helpful.

My hope would be that the song (as it is) would first of all help someone who's struggling with depression to feel understood, and second of all would help someone who does not struggle with depression to understand a little better what someone who does feels like, and needs most of all - which is to be loved, even if the depression never dissipates.

LYRICS:

I could change the world
if I could just get out of bed.
But I can’t shake these thoughts
runnin’ round here in my head.

I could make you see
if I could take you there.
But I can’t make you be
the kinda lover who’d care.

Somedays all that I can do
is sleep and breathe.
Hopin’ you might push on through
and not give up on me.

Will you still love me forever?
Will you still love me if I never get better?

Where do you find your hope?
Can spare a little for me, please?
I’m at the end of my rope.
I’m fallin’ down on my knees.

On the outside, I seem okay.
But inside, I’m kinda broke.
Crushed beneath all of this weight
of all the words I never spoke.

Somedays all that I can do
is sleep and breathe.
Hopin’ you might push on through
and not give up on me.

Will you still love me forever?
Will you still love me if I never get better?

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Recorded @ the WAV Lab, with John Doll on Guitar, Andrew Rogers doing percussion, and me (Josh) on vocals and baritone ukulele.