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Episode 352 – Chasing Big Dreams
Do High Targets Make Me Comfortable, Fearful, or Negative?
Hello, hello. This is episode number 352 of my Artifact podcast.
Today’s date is July 25, 2025, and the time is around 9:36 p.m. Let’s jump right into today’s question.
The question is: Whenever you set a high target, do you feel comfortable, fearful, or negative?
First of all, this question itself is a form of self-assessment. Now, what do I mean by that? Self-assessment is when you sit down and analyze yourself—your thoughts, your feelings, your actions—and try to answer honestly. It’s like holding up a mirror, but instead of checking your face, you’re checking your mindset.
So let’s break it down. Do I feel uncomfortable when I set high targets? Let’s think about that.

The YouTuber Dream
Yes, I’ve set high targets before. A big one for me was wanting to become a YouTuber and actually earn money from it. For me, that’s a pretty ambitious dream. Did I feel uncomfortable while chasing it? Honestly, no.
But before I explain why, let me share a couple of moments from my past where I did feel uncomfortable.

Story One: The College Festival
This goes back about ten years, around 2013–2014. My friend Vishal was hosting a college festival at his engineering college. At that time, I was studying for an engineering diploma and struggling badly. I had failed in multiple subjects and was stuck at home preparing to clear them.
Now, I had just bought a Motorola Moto G2, which for that time had an amazing camera. Vishal didn’t have a phone with a good camera, so he asked to borrow mine for the festival. I agreed and handed it over.
The next day, my close friends—Pintu and Vbho—and I decided to visit Vishal’s college to experience the festival. Vishal and Badal were already there since they studied at that college. For me, this was exciting because my own diploma program wasn’t like a real college. We only attended practicals and exams, so I never had that vibrant “college life.”
The festival was lively—dance shows, fashion show prep, drawing contests—it was all happening. I enjoyed it, but at the same time, I felt uneasy. Why? Because it wasn’t my college. I felt like I was pretending to belong somewhere I didn’t. On the outside, I was enjoying the photos, the events, the vibe, but inside, I knew I didn’t truly fit in. That feeling made me uncomfortable.

Story Two: The Bombay Dream
Now let’s rewind a little further, to 2012 or 2013. My friends had to appear for the SSC exam in Bombay. I didn’t apply for the exam, but I tagged along because I wanted to see the city. More than that, I had a secret mission: I wanted to pitch a script to Yash Raj Films.
I was around 19 or 20 back then, and full of wild dreams about becoming a filmmaker. I had written a script and was convinced that if I just reached Bombay and pitched it, my life would change. On the 11-hour train journey, I was bursting with confidence, imagining my movie hitting the big screen.
But the reality of Bombay hit me hard. The massive buildings, the overwhelming atmosphere—it all made me feel out of place. By the time I reached Yash Raj Films, the office was closed. I tried to talk my way in through the watchman, even pretending to be part of a casting call, but he refused. And just like that, my grand plan ended on the sidewalk.
I sat on a bench, grabbed something to eat at a nearby stall, and felt crushed. I had told myself “This is my day,” but instead, I felt like a failure without even trying. That moment—sitting outside Yash Raj Films, completely out of place—was another powerful reminder of how uncomfortable it feels when you don’t belong.

My Present Goals
So, circling back: Do I feel uncomfortable now, when I chase my YouTube goals? The answer is no.
Right now, I have about 1,500 subscribers on YouTube and 13,000 followers on Instagram. Small numbers, sure, but I’m not uneasy about it. Even if I grow to a million subscribers someday, I don’t think I’ll feel uncomfortable. Why? Because now I understand the process.
Take YouTube FanFest, for example. If I’m ever invited to meet fans face-to-face, I might feel a little nervous at first—it’s different from talking to an online audience—but I’m actively working on changing my personality. I used to be extremely introverted, but I’m pushing myself to become more extroverted, to take on leadership qualities. That growth makes me confident that I won’t feel the same old discomfort again.

Fear Factor
Do I feel fearful about chasing these big dreams? Not really. Sure, there might be small fears, like posting a video that loses me subscribers, but I accept that ups and downs are part of the journey. Same with business—if I start something and profits are low at first, I won’t quit. Failure is just feedback, and I’ve learned to embrace it.

Negativity Check
Do I feel negative about my goals? No.