" Forever " || Ao Haru Ride

" You're like the sky - I can't tell if you're nice or not.. "

Vent AMV -

Hello everyone!
Actually I really don't know where to start ...

I think it's easy to guess what this video is about; However..
It was supposed to be a monthly anniversary video that I
wanted to gift to someone & started a few days ago
and dropped it because of an incident. Well, I moved myself to finish,
so maybe I can feel better about this, but editing this amv made me cry alot.
I've put a little story into this video and no "-K" doesn't mean "Kou"
the name's just happened to have the same starting letter.

Since that incident happened a few days ago;
I couldn't eat; I couldn't sleep [ though that already was a problem before that ]
the people in my family told me that I look horrible..
I've cried myself to sleep every night since that.

However, you can tell that this is about another person & me.
I've tried so hard; and I gave it my best. But it wasn't enough, I'm not enough.
I'm probably not the one who can heal them..
Even though I wanted to be so badly.
I still don't know why this had to happen - I still don't get it.
But I guess it's just how the person said. If you are ever gonna read this;
I always wanted to show you " Forever " - and I still want to.
But you never gave me the chance to.
I know that you don't believe in these words - and I know my words probably don't reach you.
And I hope you're not mad at me for posting something like this.
There are so many things rushing through my mind
that I want to tell you - that I want to expierence with you.
I've always built up my hopes and fighted hard
so that you can love me as much as I love you .. . But ..
You can't force someone to love you.. and it hurts so much to know
that this is probably just onesided. I don't hate you - I never did.
I'm not mad at you - even if I try to, I can't.
Seeing all this happening hurts alot - it's tearing me apart.
I won't ever leave you - believe it or not it's your choice.
I will still try to fight for you - even if it's probably hopeless..
But aslong as I can be by your side - I'm happy..
It hurts to see you sad & I just want to hug you ;
everytime something happens in your life.. like I used to..
And I want to mend you.. I wish I could.. And If I could turn back time..
I would change the steps I took at the beginning.. I'm always wondering
if it would be different now if I would have acted different from the start..
Yes, forever is a long long time; but I wouldn't mind spending it by your side..
Anyway, this video is dedicated to you..
if you'll ever even watch or read this.. that is.
There is probably alot more that I want to say - But I'll just leave it at that for now..

I love you ;

Sorry for typing so much - just skip through, it's not necessary to read this.

*A b o u t. -

Song: I wouldn't mind
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Artist: He is We
Anime: Ao Haru Ride

EWP - We imagine a world of happiness.
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