escape

Lyrics
Living in a prison only option was escaping
Using what i got available, i dove in video games, i swear i
||Boarded myself in the basement
I was Surrounded by polygon faces
Cause they wouldn’t ||hurt me while i was losing touch of everything inside my spaces
It got ||boring eventually- i moved on to leaning conflicts
I was ||so small inside my house i wanted something beyond this
You think that where you live should feel ||relaxing but it cant be when an addict is trashing it,
i was escaping from this madness
Studied the ukraine war, and i made a youtube channel where i ||updated the situation
Got a little traction then i ||gained more
--monetized my channel, started making money then i changed my business aims so i could go and make more
Sponsorships with shady people, blinded by the bag
Yeah, ||Nothing changed- i was still escaping from my dad
Focused on money instead of building my connections
All The ||numbers faded feeling like i lost my upper hand
Wouldn’t talk to people there cause i would look at telegram
Gone in all my conversations, don’t know what i’m telling them
Feeling lost, but at least i had sumn to show for it
Never lived behind the wheel i felt like i would chauffeur it
Everywhere i went, and it was until i woke up
I had to be present cause in my life i never showed up
Grabbing the wheel- i got out of the passenger seat
I didn’t have any friends cause i was making ends meet
I didn’t even need to i forgot to be fucking kid
But when i returned to reality i was still stuck up in||side this shit
Having money didn’t make my family ||come back together
But at least i was present
But i was ||too scared to feel
Cause how i was hurt in the past yeah
My ||new escape was putting all my music on blast
using ||808s to take my pain away, and fade away into the better place
I'd never waste my time in, wish that i was raised in
Even though im changing i still notice im escaping in a different way
I channel all my energy into the same ||basement that i gamed in (huh)
But ||now i lift weights in
Its the best thing i could do cause now i’m looking amazing
I was stuck in the dark, but now i look to the light
And i ||stay behind the wheel cause theres control in my life
And i’ll ||Never fall back, cause i can't do it all twice
I learned that ||Everyone escapes you gotta channel it right