Alter Boy - You're A Killer, I'm Alive (Auslan Music Video) [OFFICIAL]

‘You're A Killer, I'm Alive’ starring Luke Eastman
Alter Boy is Molly Priest, Luke Eastman, Andrew Wright, Josh Ellis & Josh Terlick

'You’re a Killer, I’m Alive’ is an unsent letter to a parent from a child raised in disorder and delusion. It accuses the parent of colonising the mind and distorting reality in an attempted murder of the authentic self. Reflecting on the song Alter Boy’s lead vocalist Molly Priest says “These parents don’t curate a person directly, they shape the behaviour of a child by approaching and withdrawing, encouraging and degrading. They poison a child with fear, guilt and shame and they confuse the child by presenting a false self in public. From an early age you learn to read them and monitor their emotions and body language and you learn to do your best impression of a object to keep yourself safe. You have to feel everything they refuse to feel or don’t know how to feel, and there’s no way to meet or discover yourself
in that place. You come out of it as a walking talking survival response and an echo of the people around you. Your true needs and inclinations are buried very deep and it’s an archaeological mission to find yourself at the
end of it. And part of the recovery is to sever the attachment to the definition of yourself as bad or wrong, and the parent as good and true. And it’s painful because there’s so much love and a deep sympathy for these people who were never capable of loving or caring about you”

The accompanying video showcases an Auslan performance from band member Luke Eastman. Explaining the meaning behind his performance, Luke says “You’re A Killer, I’m Alive contrasts the dynamics and emotions of a relationship between a young parent and child. The immature parent, not only unprepared but unwilling to do the work required, while craving and demanding the accolades, appreciation, love and company associated with parenthood. Contrasting against the perspective of the child, portraying them going through periods of obedience, confusion, reflection, understanding and acceptance. I've aimed to compare many conflicting concepts throughout the clip. Empathy vs sympathy, accountability vs blame, and acceptance and understanding vs forgiveness. The parental figure is daunting, with large, indelicate movements contrasting again to the smaller, more precise signs representing both the imbalance in power, favouring the parent, against the imbalance of understanding, favouring the child."

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Camera Operator: Abby Marshall / Wild Red Media
Lighting Design: Dean Gratwick
Editor: Steph Gurdon
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Filmed at Magic Studios in West Perth.
The cast & crew acknowledge the Traditional Owners of the land upon which filming took place.
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You're A Killer, I'm Alive (lyrics)

I am the age that you were then
When you used to make me sing
I did everything
To please you

I’m not grateful for this
I’m not grateful for this

Hold me like an object
Will me like a prophet
Live on pious ground
Love me like a godhead
Hate me like you see red
Holier than thou
I had to fall upon your knife
You’re a killer, I’m alive

I’ve seen the end and I forgive you now and then
I felt everything the house it had to breathe
I laid my head down on the floor
And you’re still trying to find the door
Now that I’m wiser I can see
It's a story on a story
Am I ready now to hold me
Grant me your release

I’m not grateful for this

Hold me like an object
Will me like a prophet
Live on pious ground
Love me like a godhead
Hate me like you see red
Holier than thou

Hold me like an object
Will me like a prophet
Live on pious ground
Love me like a godhead
Hate me like you see red
Holier than thou

Die quietly
Mother is trying to sleep
Live silently
Hold the enemy

Hold me like an object
Will me like a prophet
Live on pious ground
I had to fall upon your knife
Love me like a godhead
Hate me like you see red
Holier than thou
You’re a killer, I’m alive
You’re a killer, I’m alive