Evan Honer - Too Far Gone (Sanctuary Sessions)

this song is about throwing up on the sidewalk

lyrics:

I'm throwing up on the sidewalk
It's 2:00 am everybody left
I just embarrassed myself for an hour
Now I'm sitting in a neighborhood
I don't even recognize
I didn't even want to go out
I kind of thought it would help just a little
But I'm lying to myself 'cause
I know in a weeks time I won't try to realize
This ain't no way to live so why does everybody brag about it
I guess it easier to fill yourself with poison
While your holding on to moments you can glorify
And I've been stuck for awhile now cause
I've been saying this for three damn years
Am I ever gonna change will a make it out alive or
Will I crumble will I fall?
Will anybody care at all?
Am destined to be damaged?
Am I too far gone?
Believe me when I say
It ain't fair to feel this way
But I'll poison myself till I'm too far gone
I'm driving home when I shouldn't
I didn't even remember the drive
How could I be so selfish every time that I feel helpless
I crossed through every single line
I'm not convinced that I'm living 'cause if I was
I'd be able to feel something
Maybe it's a part of me or maybe it's just hard to see
What everyone else can find
Theres gotta be a reason
This lifestyle ain't meant for dreamers
But they'll tell you its okay
Waste your 20's away
Cause your only young for a moment
And I've been stuck for awhile now
Cause I've been saying this for three damn years
Am I ever gonna change will a make it out alive or
Will I crumble will I fall?
Will anybody care at all?
Am destined to be damaged?
Am I too far gone?
Believe me when I say
It ain't fair to feel this way
But I'll poison myself
Till I'm too far gone
And how long will it take
Till I'm beaten down
Bruised then break
Still you can find me in the evening
I'll be too far gone
Yeah I'm too far gone