i can’t stop rotting rant

actually feeling really inspired as i’m writing this and the opposite of THAT mood, but it’s also still morning i’m super behind on the shot i wanted to do today and i’ll probably reach that burnout again. but i won’t give in. maybe i wont maybe im cured. i actually felt very humbled by my voice instructor yesterday who’s already got so much music out and is 19 and has a gorgeous voice and already an established (at least on socials i mean) musician who is majoring in the same thing i am except at a 4 year college states a way as i am, while im going to the local community college that has a less specific program as what i/we want to do. i felt so embarrassed inside when she was talking about her aspirations and i realized i have very similar ones, except the fact she seems so much closer to reaching them and more prepared. but i hate comparison and ik its not great. She’s 3 years older than me. has been singing her whole life, of course she has a better voice! i’ve had plenty of stuff happen in my life that deeply inspires my writing and songwriting and just way of looking at things that is different than her and makes me, not necessarily stand out as in i’m better, but just different.

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