the heart i have

Written and performed by yours truly x

Said to stand up straight
Don't look around again or
Look at the ground again
Tried to pull my weight
In other people's games
And other people's games are great
But they're not mine.

God it feels so strange
Try'na simulate
Something that stimulates
Them to know my name
Can I call this whole thing off?
I wanna call my own damn shots.

I've been good at holding my things dear
Everything I've had
But I still feel lacking in some spheres
Every human has
First I feel so happy to be here
And then I get so sad
'Cause I know I've been so insincere
To the heart I have.

Try to make my way
But sticky sentiment
Makes me hesitant
Find what's gone astray
Try to call it back
And there's a path that's paved ahead
But it's not mine.

I've been good at holding my things dear
Everything I've had
But I still feel lacking in some spheres
Every human has
First I feel so happy to be here
And then I get so sad
'Cause I know I've been so insincere
To the heart I have.

You barely see the light before it's gone
But we wouldn't treat it right if it went on and on and on and on
And stretch it far too wide it's bound to snap
But drop it way too early and you'll just want it back
And it drives me mad
How life's like that.

I've been good at holding my things dear
Everything I've had
But I still feel lacking in some spheres
Every human has
First I feel so happy to be here
And then I get so sad
'Cause I know I've been so insincere
To the heart I have.

'Cause I know I've been so insincere
To the heart I have.