Kuyamu to Kaite Mirai ❀ English Cover 【aya ❀】

maybe it would be better if i was never even born at all ♡

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aya niigo arc continues after a long pause yes!! this one is a little heavier than saisei but it was still a lot of fun to do! it was hard exploring these themes and thoughts but seeing the final product, im glad i did 🌸 thank you so so much jas and shiichan for helping me so much with this cover, i love you both so much you have no ideaaa!! go sub to them both rn yes ♡

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❀ credits ❀
aya ❀ (lyrics/vocals/tune/time/harmony guides)
↳    / @ayataite  
shiorichan (mix/master)
↳    / @shioriichan17  
jaskokoro (animation)
↳    / @jaskokoro  

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❀ lyrics (use only with credit!) ❀

if one day you decide to drive the stake into my chest
would that be nice?
it would be nice.
venom laced into your words, intent to lay me down to rest
would that be nice?
it would be nice.

hanging on by a thread everyday
is this a life even worth being saved?
toss my heart onto the ashes, watch as it bursts into flames

so end me, forget me, what do i care?
there is not a single shred of hope left
i’m shaking, i’m breaking beyond repair
a coward hidden in the depths of despair
i’ve lost sight of what i wanted to be
there is no way to be healed with scars that run this deep
the one thing i can’t forget, ah…
my future will be full of regret

pretending you’re alright when you feel like you’re dead inside
is that life?
yeah, that’s life.
if it’s like that, then what’s the point of living at all?
with a heart that keeps beating on by default
to this day, the answer is still uncertain

hoping one day that a flower will bloom
although there isn’t a sprout in view
‘cause no matter how i try, no flower can grow in a monsoon

that’s why i made the choice
to end it, forget it, throw it away
as every color in my world becomes gray
pretend that you care but you and i know
this superficial love has nothing to show
so you win, i give in, what can i say?
i’m so tired of the empty promises we made
the one thing i can’t forget, ah…
my future will be full of regret

stumbling in the dark, i keep on trying
desperate to be saved, to keep on surviving
still, i fear there’s nothing left here for me
locked inside a cage, the key thrown just out of reach
that is the life i know
staring at the sky while destined to fall
ah… maybe it would be better if i was
never even born at all!

so end me, forget me, what do i care?
there is not a single shred of hope left
i’m shaking, i’m breaking beyond repair
a coward hidden in the depths of despair
i’ve lost sight of what i wanted to be
there is no way to be healed with scars that run this deep
the one thing i can’t forget, ah…
my future will be full of regret
a future written off as regret

when will it end? please make it end
there’s no future left to defend
these regrets are haunting my dreams
someone, please save me…

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❀ disclaimer ❀
i do not own the instrumental or original song