One Boss A Day || Day 362 "Cuphead DLC - Esther Winchester"

One boss a day flies on a plane to shoot a gigantic cow.

Surprisingly one of the bosses I struggled with in the DLC. I'm just not really good at using the plane compared to the normal version and the first and second phase of this boss got me. It's because I have trouble focusing on multiple directions (foreshadowing to what I'm going to rant about today) and man that first stage has things coming at you from literally every angle. Cuphead is also a really colorful and stylized game so I had trouble differing attacks from the moving background sometimes. The second phase, I just had trouble dodging/positioning myself to dodge the links. The last stage wasn't that bad and was actually the stage I enjoyed the most from an attack design standpoint.

I think I am finally coming to terms with some of my issues. I don't have mental or physical issues (at least drastically impacting me physical issues), but I just have issues. Somewhat poetically, I'm at the same exact point in my life as a previous stage (they say history repeats itself), but this time I've actually matured and learned from my mistakes. It's the point where I'm all on my own once more. Me against me. In the past, I framed it as me against the world, but that isn't quite right. The world doesn't give a damn about me nor my problems and what problems could I have with the world (that I could realistically do anything about and none of those problems even truly originate with the world to be frank)? But if the world wants some of me, I'm always ready to throw it down. I'll lose and lose and lose, but you can't make me quit.

However similar to the past, I'm taking steps to move forward. The only thing different is the method and my way of going about it. I always preferred to be alone and detach from the things in life (still working on not doing that). The reason are too personal for me to disclose, but it was a way to safeguard myself. This time, I realize that's not a healthy way to live. I've grown comfortable with myself (who I am, being alone, all of that) and it's time to get out of my tiny little bubble of a world. I may be able to do it all on my own, but I'm not going to. Rather then hate and despise those that I think have done me wrong, I just no longer have any sort of feelings towards them (maybe I'm reaching enlightenment or something). There is always a fault in me somewhere to focus on fixing instead. This time I'm truly focusing on myself. I can't right the wrongs, but I can make sure the wrongs don't happen again. It's a small pandering step towards internal peace.

Where did this come from? Well for the first time, I talked about one of the most traumatic moments in my life to someone and explained (or at least tried to) how it impacted me. It was hard to find the words for it. It was hard to be vulnerable, to have my heart on a platter. I was scared to show any weakness, but that's me problem. It was the first time I genuinely confronted it and even though they didn't have really anything to say to it (what could you even say in that situation?), it helped me get some closure. Though I say it doesn't impact me anymore, that must be a lie and I'm ready now to deal with it.

After 362 days of what this series is supposed to be about, today might be the day I beat my first real boss. This really is one of the most important/impactful years of my entire life.

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