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This is what living life looks like! I have had a really hard past 4 days and hit rock bottom. My pain levels had risen and I was flaring at a 9-10/10. I couldn’t get out of bed, I wanted to quit this battle and give up. I didn’t want to go on. I felt defeated, weak and hopeless. This week in my treatments I was very emotional, I shared many tears with my NMR therapist, and personally struggled to get through. I had lost my positive mental state as my CRPS was winning. Well last night I was feeling hopeful so I decided to push myself no matter what the circumstances were. I threw on my winter boots that I haven’t worn in over 2.5 years and went outside with my dogs to play in the snow. I automatically flare in the cold, yet alone in boots that that are compressing my CRPS leg. I overcame the fear and just did it. I didn’t flare once. I did it again this morning and didn’t flare. I was even able to touch the snow with my CRPS hand and no flare. My pain rose afterwards, but this means my body is healing and is responding to treatments. We all face darkness and bad days, but I have to remember that I am stronger than my disease. It doesn’t not define who I am and what I can do unless I let it. I will win this battle and eventually hit remission thanks to my therapists @speroclinic I can’t over do myself, but these are the little moments to enjoy. Am I in pain still? Yes. Will it go away some day? Yes I know it. I am fearless.