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[lyric]


I’m still trapped in that room
Where walls wept in silence
Where laughter bled from open throats
And quiet carved itself into my skin


Her shrieks cracked the air
His fury split the ceiling
And when it went still
I painted on a smile
Like a mask made of rot
I danced between their knives
A marionette stitched from shame
I smiled
Not to be loved
But to not be discarded


Don’t erase me, Mama
Don’t forget me, Papa
I’ll be perfect—I swear
Mute, hollow, glowing
I’ll cage the cries
Muffle the wails
Fold myself in linen like a dressed-up corpse
Still warm, still twitching
Still pretending to live


I was raised in a grave
The bed was a coffin that sang lullabies
And the monsters wore wedding rings
They kissed my forehead with claws
Taught me to bleed politely
To smile while decaying


Afraid of the trash
I polished myself into a trophy
A shattered mirror
Reflecting nothing


There was no god
No mercy, no light
Only the desire to vanish
To drown in sleep without breath
To silence the voices gnawing in my skull
Each morning
I rotted a little more


I’m still there
Still hiding fists beneath the sheets
Still stitching my lips with silence
Still smiling
Still performing
Maybe forever
Maybe I never left