Скачать или смотреть Trying to become more generous

Lost my voice mid video I'm sorry. Hopefully you could hear my croaky voice at all. Maybe it is more realistic than usual, seeing that i am, in fact, a raven.

I talk about how i grew up in a stingy family and how i've been wanting to be more generous after being around generous people. I talk about being kinder and seeing abundance instead of scarcity.

I wanted to go on more about the obsession and magical thinking i have around money and how executive disfunction is not the same as hoarding OCD, but can be similar. I also wanted to give examples about how anxiety stops me from doing things i love or showing up for the people i love such as buying stamps for christmas cards when i have the means to do so. It makes me feel guilty and like such a greedy cruel person, when really I'm also denying myself of necessary things and I'm being cruel to myself as well. It is not an excuse for me to keep hoarding, rather incentive for me to try to change.

I also wanted to talk about generational trauma and a dream my ISTJ dad had, but that will have to wait another video.