myguiltybody - better in the end (original)

For all the concerned comments on my last song, fuck you

I had role models growing up
And they compose the best of me
And every single one of them
Did sex work, drugs, and things obscene

My mom was busy throwing up
My dad would rather scream at me
But they taught me some lessons
On how trust is earned and secrets leak

And I am done apologizing
For anything I said
My actions were all automatic
And none of them were really friends

Gone by the wayside
Soon as their fair weather ends
I'm better off without them
And I might feel better in the end

I might feel better in the end

And I don't owe you shit
Or explanations for the words I say
And be careful with assumptions
Because you don't know a single thing

When I say I want to die
It's a genuine and truthful thing
But I am doing everything I can
To keep it all contained

I ask you to consider
What it's like to live in constant pain
The strength it takes to get up every day
And still sing the same

The confidence it takes to let it out
And let you see my face
Determined to be genuine with
Every single word I say

So I might feel better in the end