Forrister (Julien Baker) - Choked Up

Great song no longer available on streaming, sadly. Used to be on youtube but disappeared, hence the upload. Please come back, Forrister.

https://forrister.bandcamp.com

Slip your fingers underneath the stitches of an off-white wedding gown,
I’ll lay you in a marriage bed of haystacks in a bloody briar crown
our jaws are cauterized with alcohol, soldered shut by smoke,
I don’t want you to return my calls or tell me dirty jokes
Because if I’m being honest

I haven’t taken my medicine, I’m wasted and staying the night
I’ll sleep on the floor in my clothes and you’ll hide all your knives,
with the bad dreams and the whiskey
Tell your friends you don’t miss me
I know you don’t.
Why would you?

drive the length of the state, when the drywall holds my fist,
you were trading silver that you found on someone else’s lips
So don’t you meet me in the front lawn for a hidden garden kiss,
I see everyone I meet through the lenses on your wrists
Because if I'm being honest

I haven’t taken my medicine, I’m wasted and staying the night.
I’ll sleep on the floor in my clothes and you’ll hide all your knives,
with the bad dreams and the whiskey
Tell your friends you don’t miss me
I know you don’t
Why would you?
I know you don’t
Why would you?
I know you don’t
Why would you?