[SHINee] Kim Jonghyun ♡

Kim Jonghyun ♡

종현아 안녕. 뭐해? 잘지냈어? 난 아닌데. 나 진짜 어떡하지? 너무 보고싶은데 ㅠㅠ

jonghyun-ah, i really hope you're doing well. are you happy now? every night i'll think of you. it's already 3weeks after you passed away but i never getting any better. my condition worsen day by day, jonghyun-ah. i'm really sorry that i never keep on updated about you after i left kpop world. even after i came back i didnt come back to you..when you were my bias before... but i always support and root on you. you know that right? i'm really sorry and i regret everything...when its already too late... at this moment, how i wish this was all just a nightmare. how i wish this is like all the dramas i watched, that you'll come back someday...

every night i'll watch your videos. as expected from our bling bling, you gave me a great happiness only by watching you smiling, laughing, having fun with the members. but then i'll start questioning everything. how come a very bright and cheerful person like you could make a decision like that? were you really unhappy during these past years? why dont you seek for your members and talked about your depression with them? why did you live alone? why did anyone let you live alone when they knew you have depression. im sorry for questioning you.. by now im still trying to accept the fact that i wont see you anymore.. after you passed away, i feel like myself changing. i became so gloomy, sad, every night i couldnt sleep, im not myself anymore. i took several tests of depression and the results came out to be i have a depression..what should i do now jonghyun-ah? should i follow you?

jonghyun-ah, for all the happiness and laughters you've brought to me and many people, thankyou so much. for enduring the pain by yourself and bear everything for your loved ones, thankyou. for being so caring and loving to the people around you and your fans, thankyou. thankyou for always delivering your beautiful voice to people. thankyou for producing beautiful songs that emphatize people. you were really a great and amazing person. your passing brought a great effect to many people including me. you've worked so hard jonghyun-ah for these past years. im very proud of you. i really hope you know that youre loved by many people and that many people are proud of you. we'll remember you forever so make sure you're happy without any pain now and watch over your family, members and fans from up there ok? give us strength to go on with our life. thankyou for everything, kim jonghyun ♡ i love you so much ♡

그동안 너무 수고했고 민히 고생했고 너무 미안하다 쫑아 ㅠㅠㅠ 항상 고맙고 사랑한다 우리 브링 브링 종현이 ♡