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My Artifact – Episode 356
Asking for Money: Responsibility, Relaxation, Comfort, and Positivity
Hello, hello. This is My Artifact, episode number 356.
Today’s date is the 27th of July, 2025.
It’s afternoon—around 2:42 p.m.
Why am I recording Artifact this afternoon? Honestly, I don’t know. I just had lunch—actually, a heavy lunch—so I thought I’d go for a walk. The weather is cloudy but really nice, and that’s when it hit me: let’s record.
But there’s also another reason. Lately, I’ve been asking myself some really interesting, self-analyzing questions. Yesterday, I recorded twice in the evening, around 8:30 p.m. and 9:30 p.m. Today, I already recorded at 8:30 a.m., and now here I am again in the afternoon.
I think I enjoy these questions because when I answer them, I feel good—like I’m learning more about myself.
Now, the question for today is:
“Does asking for money make you feel responsible, relaxed, comfortable, or positive?”
Asking for Money
When I think about asking someone for money, do I feel comfortable?
The answer is no.
I’m not comfortable asking for money from anyone. It just feels wrong, awkward, and honestly… heavy.
Right now, I’m 31, and I’m not earning. So sometimes, yes, I need money. And when I really need it, I ask my father. But even with him, I don’t feel fully comfortable. I don’t have a choice, but still—it doesn’t sit right.
When you’re a child, asking money from parents is fine. But when you’re grown up, it feels different. It feels like you should be earning your own. That thought makes me uncomfortable.
Relaxation
Do I feel relaxed when I ask for money?
No, not at all. How could I be relaxed? If I’m asking, that means I don’t have money. And when you don’t have money, that situation is stressful, not relaxing.
But wait—there’s another side. What if someone owes me money? For example, let’s say I gave a friend 5,000 rupees. If I need it back, and I have to ask for it—do I feel relaxed? Again, no. It feels awkward. Even when it’s my money, I don’t like asking for it back.
Because of that, I’ve developed a rule for myself: if I give someone money, I’ll assume I might not get it back. That way, I don’t have to face the discomfort of asking. Honestly, it’s easier for me to just let it go than to chase after it.
So in both cases—whether I’m asking for money for myself, or asking for my money back—I don’t feel relaxed.
Responsibility
Do I feel responsible when I ask for money?
Honestly, no. If I were truly responsible, I wouldn’t have to ask in the first place. Responsibility, to me, means earning and managing my own money. So when I ask someone else, it feels like I’ve failed in that part.
Positivity
Do I feel positive when I ask for money?
Definitely not. There’s no positivity in it. Either I’m broke and need help, or I’m chasing someone who hasn’t returned what I gave. Neither situation feels positive to me.
Wrapping Up
So yeah, this question is a little tricky, but for me the answers are pretty clear:
Asking for money does not make me feel comfortable.


It does not make me feel relaxed.


It does not make me feel responsible.


And it definitely does not make me feel positive.


That’s it. That’s today’s Artifact.
Thank you for listening.