[tw ED] school started so i binged again :') | emotional eating | donuts + bread + snacks

uhhhhh school stress got to me :')
don't know what to say, please stay safe guys ヽ(･ε ･´ﾒ)
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HEY! please don't watch these videos if you are easily triggered, these videos are made for myself and no one wants to promote eddie here so if you will, continue with a large grain of salt and a very, very open mind please and thank you~

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𝕔𝕠𝕟𝕥𝕖𝕩𝕥:
I have had a large appetite since little, but was able to maintain a lean(ish) physique due to eating habits at home. haven't been formally diagnosed but I struggle with disordered eating + body dysmorphia on a daily if not hourly basis.
after I entered university I had access to more foods than I could ever imagine, which, in conjunction with my larger appetite, led my body image to go into a downward spiral.
I have struggled with binge eating and was on the verge of bulimia (I couldn't bring myself to physically vomit food). my relationships with food and my body is pretty messed up, but I am slowly recovering.

𝕔𝕦𝕣𝕣𝕖𝕟𝕥𝕝𝕪 𝕨𝕠𝕣𝕜𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕠𝕟:
- bettering my relationship w/ exercise (which is no exercise atm, please don't ask me to workout because i'll see my body and hate myself)
- not eating like, 120% full at every single meal
- mindful eating
- do less body checking
- reducing the amount of sugar i binge on (for my poor skin lol)

i started documenting my binges at first, for myself. to leave a "document" of how much i could eat - because, if i don't document, then i will literally forget what my binges were about. however, it seems that these videos were helpful to some of you for controlling binges or to feel seen. so i will ignore the comments that make me feel sad!