Скачать или смотреть I Left a Silent Retreat Because I Couldn't Stand Listening to my Thoughts

In 2016, I went on a 10-day silent meditation retreat in Thailand — and I left halfway through because I couldn't listening to my mind.

This is a slow, honest reflection on what actually happened: boredom, resistance, unexpected insights, relief, and the long unfolding of meaning that didn’t arrive on schedule.

Not a teaching.
Not advice.
Just a lived story about listening, not knowing, and letting life be the teacher.
And if you’re right now struggling with how to relate to a silent retreat, meditation practice, or the social stigma of leaving an event early, you’re not alone.

The monastery is called Wat Suan Mokkh, it is just outside of Surat Thani: https://www.suanmokkh-idh.org/

And lots of gratitude to my dear friend Anna for opening the door into spiritual adventures in Sweden 💞 Tack!