ESHRAL - OUTRO (Audio) | @eshral.otb

Eshral - Outro (Audio) - Track 15 from the album "Predetermined"

Produced and mixed by Eshral (@prodbyeshral)
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Cover art by Rani Race (@ranileea) and Eshral (@eshral.otb)

Lyrics:
Look at this city there's nothing but jealousy, man telling me things I'll never be,
Wondering will all all my friends turn enemy, too much time with frenemies,
Spent all my life dreaming about remedies, been sick in the head it's affecting me heavily,
Can't remember a time when I wasn't disordered, I've always been struggling mentally.

In this city I'm looking for clarity, good kids with fucked up families,
Going out tryna escape their reality, more time ends in catastrophe,
They'll go out and roll with a gang on some savagery, get stabbed and then it's a tragedy,
Know I don't get it so you can stay mad at me, everyone's lost and it saddens me.

Like you could get rich off musical salaries, or have your art work in a gallery,
Don't follow the herd, I stay doing me, I'm allergic to sheep that's analogy,
Stay doing you don't think that you have to be, someone you're not that's a cycle of agony,
I've seen it before, they seem insecure, then push away all of their family.

Cuz they're hurting, I've been there too and that's certain,
Like I've been in them shoes and they ain't brand new, still put them on when I'm not working,
Old memories coming up and I curved em, but now I'm learning to observe them,
Now I'm learning to try word all the thoughts that I struggle to say when in person.

You taught me that pain can be beautiful, not a movie my life is a tapestry,
Love you cuz you helped me get through it all, but was your love for me only a fallacy,
Don't feel bad don't think that you have to be, responsible for all my agony,
Cuz I've been here before war wounds getting sore, now I'm focused on me and the family.

Cuz that's all that matters, ain't got many friends but I know who the gang are,
That means you got my back and I got yours, that means you get up when you hit the floor,
That means you step up and back it, when shit gets dramatic and we're in a war,
In time we'll be on a tour, this life I'm feeling there's more.

This life I'm leaning to manage my thoughts, lyrics are them and the beats are a score,
Self control be getting me bored, it's lonely you don't get support,
But that's just the way of the natural law, and justice fuck this I don't wanna talk.

I don't want flowers the job isn't done yet up next, let me just work I'm low but not upset,
My life conditions I'm rapping the subtext, mixing the pain with the passion like rough sex,
To be honest this album ain't scratching the surface, of what I'm thinking I'm knowing for certain,
I was put on this earth for a purpose, all of my life predetermined.