Always

Written in 2023 when I was sad:D original by Layla-Ruth

Lyrics:

And I’ll always be here
I’ll always be here

So I let flowers grow from my pain and roots have sunk into scars
So recycle my pity and joy cause I can’t cry anymore
Is it possible for me to face myself and not judge from your expectations when will I learn that history repeats itself within me

Cause I wanna look fear in the eyes and say I was the one who gave it a name
I wanna make a promise that this time around I’ll change

Cause she’s always screaming for what I’ll never know
Maybe to just be heard or maybe so I can learn from her
But she’s always waiting for lies to touch her ears but she’s starting to wake up from all of her nightmares
Always

So I let roses grow from my grief and thorns are memories I’ll prick myself on
Just to feel something again
Just to feel the past on my skin
Cause I obsess over a burning in my not a scream but a whisper a quiet wishing
Too scared to let it breathe she says let me go and I cannot put a name to it at all
Not at all

Cause I wanna look fear in the eyes and say I was the one who gave it a name
I wanna make a promise that this time around I’ll change

Cause she’s always screaming for what I’ll never know
Maybe to just be heard or maybe so I can learn from her
But she’s always waiting for lies to touch her ears but she’s starting to wake up from all of her nightmares
Always

So scream at me judge me tell me everything wrong with me
And to my soul and I will crack and bleed into the soil
I call home I’m going home
I’m calling home I’m going home

There’s a shadow that walks behind me
She’s an echo of the other paths and she haunts me
Oh she haunts me

Cause I wanna look fear in the eyes and say I was the one who gave it a name
I wanna make a promise that this time around I’ll change