[t̶w̶] bday food vlog | eating everything i want on my bday | going back to china! ✈️🍔🍦

ahem so this was my first time ever getting nails done and boy were they loooong…they made my hands look so pretty yet i have to sacrifice a lot of things i took for granted ie. grabbing stuff and typing on my laptop - how do girls with super long nails even do things, i respect them so much

we went to fort langley! and i met up w friends!! and i actually think airplane food isn’t that bad!!! anyways guys i’m gonna be in china for the rest of the summer so idk if i’ll even be able to get on youtube when i’m there ://

dopamine blurb: our brain has several parallel pathways that drive us to seek out foods that elevate our blood sugar (i.e. sweet foods or salty foods with hidden sugars) in order to raise dopamine levels. there are two ways we can slowly get rid of this bad habit: to lower the amount of the dopamine spike as well as the rate of release of dopamine. here i’ll try my best to summarize what dr. huberman recommended:

1) eat fiber with your sugar fix

2) ingest foods with lower glycemic indices

3) don’t drink diet soda when you’re already eating foods that will spike your blood sugar

4) SLEEP! this is actually the most important one

and thanks so much for sticking around :3
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𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙭𝙩:
I’ve always had a large appetite, but I had a healthy relationship with food before university. Living alone and dealing with stress and the abundance of freedom (oh, the plethora of food choices) overwhelmed me into disordered eating. I filmed my secretive binging activity and received so much comfort from strangers from the Youtube community that it led me into binging repetitively. In winter 2021, I started giving myself pretty much unconditional permission to eat anything anytime. It led to a LOT of weight gain but also, a surprisingly acceptance and indifference to my weight. I no longer binge to the point of discomfort the way that I did before. Although I intend to get into better shape, I don't want to lose a lot of weight because I know my body will protest and I will relapse.

Recording my binges provided me an opportunity to both comfort myself and others. Documenting my binges was simply for documentation, and for looking back at myself in the past. Video editing is my passion, and I will continue to do it in the future.